I might be more of a voluntary celibate.

The core of the “incel” argument lies in the fact that a “society” is preventing “incels” from engaging in any level of intimate connection including sex.

This requires the individual to be a part of, or be in active engagement with society. I am NOT engaged in society whatsoever. Many incels are also likely terminally online, but never really present in any social setting.

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I am socially isolated. I have good reason to be isolated.

School communities and workplace communities often ended up abusing me for my unique traits, going as far as to lynch, strip and physically assault me, verbally abuse me as a “lunatic”, and so on.

Nightlife barely differed in this aspect. Most communities ended up shunning me for my music taste, taste in fashion, and factors such as weight or looks. That, or they baited me into extreme amounts of spending in exchange for an illusion of intimacy and friendship.

Online communities were hostile to me for my unique scope of interests which never overlapped with any group.

There are tight knit, one on one connections I still maintain, where I strictly reject any sexual or romantic advances. I value the perspectives and the knowledge of these people, but not exactly the people themselves. I have no intention of sharing any domesticity or allowing any sort of intimate or close relationship where I would have to give them control over the way I live my life.

I reject my own family, and have been excommunicated from my maternal side. I do not listen to what they tell me to do, or how to live my life, and have cut ties in favor of giving into their passive violence.

My autistic traits and strong inclination to my own interests, to the point of disregarding everything else is likely at the core of my stubborn attitude.

I do not seek, however, any sort of reconciliation from my end, as the people around me have made it very clear, that they do not intend to show any sort of tolerance for my mode of operation.

They only seek to assimilate me, punish me for my uniqueness, and harvest from what little strengths and abilities I have.

As it is so, I only seek to assimliate, control, abuse, and exploit from any intimate relationship I may have.

For the ethical reason of preventing individuals from falling victim to this, I reject all intimacy.

I may show that I want connection, that I seek for people to understand me. Until I am ready to give up my own identity in exchange for complete assimilation and subjugation, this is a half-hearted lie. I will only want things - but never be ready to give anything back.

Stand down, stay back, and do not engage. Leave me the fuck alone.