One man shot dead on one side of the political spectrum. A school shooting. Violence in Gaza, a war in Ukraine.

Yes, people: we have become fully desensitized. At the same time - we have become less naive.

Think about paramedics, doctors, and firefighters, even soldiers. All of whom who encounter ‘death’ as a likely, daily possibility. You may have heard of how they cope with this pressure by making dark jokes, often seen as “inappropriate” and “irresponsible”.

The human mind is not as powerful as we think it is, and when it is too overbearing to understand our situations with the words we are already given, we make new ones. We start looking at our own world differently, adapting to our environment.

It is inevitable, then, when we live while having access, mere access, to extreme amounts of data we struggle to even look through with our own eyes, or fully comprehend, that we lose our sensitivity.

People lose their sensitivity in other ways, too. Some will make different types of jokes, that conceal the terror they feel even more covertly. Some will cease to speak. Some will even secede from society and go into hiding.

Some resort to violence. Some resort to weed out what they think is the cause of their hysteria, a scapegoat to save their way of seeing things.

There must be extreme amounts of tranquility once you’re in the illusion that you’re safe, because you’ve killed the demons.

Stalin killed millions to satiate his need for removing fear from his mind.

The Nazis thought killing off the Jews would “save” them.

Italy and Japan went abroad, massacred populations, and waged war, believing that defeating what they consider inferior prevents their downfall.

The United States has made countless transgressions into foreign territory under the guise of what it considers “justice”, while getting confused of what it actually wants to be.

Hamas believes that tying bombs onto poor, indoctrinated young adults and blowing up civilians, they can retake their homeland from the “evil” Jews.

Israel believes that the only solution to dismantling Hamas is simply by launching a massive military offensive to “secure” the area.

Japan is slowly, as far as I can see, slowly edging back to its extremely xenophobic and power-hungry late 19th century mindset. There is this meme going around, suggesting that World War I and World War II was fought by dropping bombs from planes: and that World War III is being fought by dropping foreigners, especially those of color or darker skin, from commercial airliners.

I have become completely desensitized, because I understand that “talking” to these people is nearly impossible.

A logical, sound argument can not take place when the only thing flying around is logical fallacy.

Frankly - the ability to talk and discuss politics in a way that can formulate some sort of sane solution, I believe, is what higher education is supposed to give you. In reality, it doesn’t: many people come out with a diploma, without the confidence to be able to formulate an argument, present it, sit and listen to a rebuttal, and actually take the time necessary to figure out how to think and live, while respecting what their opponent thinks.

I’m not an exception. The only reason I even have this site, is because I can barely think for myself.

I will rely on logical fallacies when talking to people, simply because I don’t have to power to continue a conversation without it. Otherwise, I risk having to change the way I think, simply via coersion. People will shout, scream, berate, endlessly repeat their point, and tell me to conform to their way of thinking with no real alternative.

I understand. The alternative is to never be able to say anything because you “might” be wrong. To never be able to have a naive hypothesis, for what is now demanded, is absolute truth.

Let me say this, though: that’s… honestly, stupid. You’re all stupid. I’m kind of stupid, but I like to think I’m a little better. Why? I strive to be right, not by convicing myself and others that I am right - like Benito Mussolini did - but by constantly, constantly doubting myself, holding a mirror to my brain and pursuing logical perfection.

Logical perfection itself, being logically impossible to attain, for I will fail to at least count in one variable, one crucial variable, that is the deciding factor of my own thought being a meaningless ramble, or being the closest thing to clarity in a world where truth can barely exist.

The reason why I don’t consider myself stupid, is because that is where I draw the line for desensitization. I will not allow anything to let myself slip into a self-fueled delirium where I’m the only right person in the room. I will forever be the wrongest person in the room, because that is the level of precision that I hold myself to.

I feel my own mind being ground away as I write paragraphs and paragraphs, questioning reality and how we do things today, only to rm -rf the entire folder of markdown files before I tell anyone about them.

In contrast, this file will likely make it out. Why? I’m losing my own sensitivity.

I’m becoming self-righteous enough to come out and tell everyone it’s kind of stupid, how when society collapses, we devolve into violence. To silence those we think are the culprit of the breakage, so that we can “resurrect” whatever system we were working with.

When in fact, any breakage, any failure is always based on a critical design error. The systems we’ve built and chosen to run society failed to respond to a situation, causing collapse. There is nothing in continuing to use that system, because the same point of failure will fail again.

That same point of failure being, all sorts of new ideas, or the return of old ones, a call to look at alternatives. It’s such a waste how people think of a new way to look at things, then start punching each other, because they think they’re the right one in the room, and the only one with any truth.

You’re all fucking stupid. You’re the weirdest one in the room, you’re the most wrong. That’s why you need to not let punches make you go silent, but at the same time - don’t resort to violence to make your point.

Whoever killed Charlie Kirk is just fucking stupid. Congratulations! You just debased whatever you were thinking.

If it was some sort of covert operation, a psy-op: congratulations, whoever pulled it, has to have pulled it without ever letting anyone find out the truth, or history will label you as the reason why your entire ideology was debased.

What I do instead, is refine my thoughts, and refuse to immediately respond to those who question you. I am the only one allowed to doubt myself, and continue whatever conversation it is that takes place within me, until I am ready to speak. Nobody can force a reply from me, force me to think I am wrong.

Yes, cogito ergo sum. I think, therefore I am: but I would rather not be the idiot, so I strive to not be an idiot.

When I do come out, that sanctity is lost. I must now defend my position, for optics. I can’t let anyone think I’m wrong, now. I’ve shown my cards, and now I have to play them.

Watch me as I devolve into further insanity. An RSS feed will be available shortly for more meaningless ramblings. Please, however, don’t be an idiot. If you’re thinking of responding to something I wrote, take the time to actually write something of volume. At least 2000 words.